Seriously...

Since when did our lives evolve around our homes?


What I mean is, when did we become so consumed with taking care of a "home"?

We spend so much time wanting to be in it, that we feel guilty when we don't spend enough time at it. We constantly feel like we need to be doing work in, on and around it.

For what? To keep it up. So we are trying to keep up. With what?

I am starting to think that having a home, isn't what it is cracked up to be.

If we have an apartment someone else takes care of the yard, the outside of the home and does repairs for free.

We think that having a home, we can do the yard however we want, we can paint the rooms however we want. So is the drive to have a home about control. That we need to have it the way "we" want it?

On the other hand, we are told that it is a financial investment.

We pay as much in rent, potentially, that we will for a home.

Yet, we put money into the yard, upgrades, fixing broken appliances, etc.

The idea is to hold onto it long enough that you pay it off or at least are able to make money from it when it is sold.

But if we have to work to pay for it, I don't know that it is worth it.

We can't really enjoy it if we aren't in it.

We are thinking about moving closer to the town that we spend so much time in.

We initially moved out here because we didn't think we could afford anything in the town where we were living and spending all of our time.

For the past 8 years, we having been living in a home, that we have hardly had time to take care of, let alone spent time in as we are hardly ever here.

We would probably spend more time in a smaller home, in the town we live in, than in this home that we are never at.

We like our property but have issues with letting it go.

What are we afraid of?

Losing money? Really, if we sell the home, we could lose money and if we just hold onto it just a little bit longer or just stay here until our kids are grown, then we might make some money off of it.

Why not sell now and spend that time with our children and figure out the financial aspect of it later. Go about it in another way. I don't want to just stay here for the financial stability.

Yet, the thought of selling is scary. What if we make the wrong choice? We will kick ourselves. We won't be able to get it back. It is about a fear of losing something but in the end it is all lost anyways. So what is the issue? I need to ponder this a little bit more.

I am thinking that we need to sell the home and either find a smaller place for less or just rent. It only makes sense.