So I am sitting here tonight thinking about facebook.
I am thinking about the fact that it is supposed to be somewhere for family and friends to keep in touch.
It has been great meeting up with people I haven't seen for quite a few years and it has been nice meeting new friends through similar interests. It has been nice to be able to keep up with distant family members with our fast paced life in today's society.
Here's the thing though...
It is taboo to unfriend people, it is taboo to deny people. How can you tell people no that you don't want to be their friend? And the hilarious thing is, it isn't even about being their friend. But it is taken so personal when someone is denied as a friend or unfriended.
And it can feel so cruel.
Everything in me wants to allow anyone who wants to be my friend on facebook that "friend" status.
But really? What is up with the guilt trip?
Why so much pressure? And anger behind all of it?
There are certain parts of me that I don't feel like explaining to people that knew me prior to where I am now. I don't want to guard my thoughts either though. I want to surround myself with those who are accepting of me with where I am at. I want to be surrounded by people that if they don't agree, it passes under their radar. But why do I have such an issue with it. And what I mean is this...If I grow tired of reading someones posts that I really feel it eating at me, I will choose to unfriend them. It is like a trigger finger. How can I want one thing and not give back the same thing, just because someone isn't in the mindset that I am in. Why does it stir up so much anger?
I don't want to read about people putting down there children, I don't want to read over religious comments that only sounds like they're trying to convince themselves of what they say. It physically makes me sick.
I find it easier to remove what I see than to get wound up about it.
I suppose if I don't want to go in a certain direction that I don't surround myself with it.
I don't want to talk down to my children and act as if I am the POWER over them. I want to have a healthy relationship with them. To me, this means not reading posts on a daily basis about how people are going to show their children who is boss and all of their friends are chiming in and telling the parents how to "punish" the said child. I makes me sick.
So I choose not to look at it.
On the other hand, I am not interested in over zealous spewing of religious verbiage.
Really? Why?
I just don't get it. It may not be for me to get but I am concerned with associating myself with it. Not Christianity. I'll claim that.
The the religious bullshit that I want to distance myself from. I don't think it attracts people to Christ, so I would rather be away from it. Posting about Gay marriage? Really? Does that draw people to Christ? Really? Sin is sin. I sin, I am a sinner. Why would I want to put out there that I am willing to judge, when I am understanding that it isn't my job. To judge, that is. Sin is sin.
Yet, I feel like I am judging by not surrounding myself with this on facebook.
If you have a friend who is racist, do you invite them to a party where there are going to be people that they are going to blatantly judge? I don't think so. This is what I stand on.
I've thought, and have joked with a friend, about starting a completely different facebook page. One where I could allow everyone that wanted to be "friends" and I wouldn't have to look at it..lol
But really what would be the point. I wouldn't want to be a friend on that page, nor could I imagine that anyone else would if they knew.
Anywho, I am not sure where to go with this thought, other than it is one that I am pondering.
I feel like I have some things that I need to deal with. Because it just doesn't feel very right to respond this way.
Whether it is right or wrong, it is the choice that I am currently making.
I feel like throwing up.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
Home is where the heart is...
Well, our house is coming along. We had gotten so much done in the past month, you wouldn't think we still had anything left to do. A few more details to cover and then it will be on the market.
I am currently feeling fine about selling it. I feel like I have worked up to this mental state though. I just can't continue to be attached to something so temporary. I am trying to keep, that family and home are where I make them, at the front of my mind.
Once the house is put on the market and we have a buyer, I can only imagine it will stir up feelings of loss and regret which is only to be expected I guess.
We had 8 amazing years in that home. Good times and bad but overall amazing memories! Just part of our journey..It is the only home that Jasper has ever known. Trying to bring him a sense of home in our current location has been important. I am hoping it will lighten his feelings, that he has had, of a sense of loss. He has already voiced his concerns and heartache.
It has been so nice being in town. I feel like I have fuller, longer days. More time to do the things we want to do. We're not feeling rushed to get things done or not starting things for fear of not being able to finish or continue in projects or games.
It is like there was a sense of constant disruption of life and who wants to live like that.
I am, so much more, enjoying the flow that we are finding at our current location!
Stella's 12th Bday~
This past weekend, we celebrated Stella's 12th birthday. She has grown into such an amazing young woman.
Friday, we took her and her friends to go have their nails done. Saturday, family and friends came to our home to celebrate with us. Sunday, we went and did our traditional Mayan birthday meal with Nana and the Taylor family. After Mayan, we went to the mall to do a little shopping.
It was a nice weekend. It was really nice to see family and to hangout with friends!
Her eldest brother commented that he thought it was a really great weekend. If the eldest had a nice time, it must have been a good weekend!
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